Well, now I finally get why they say that the holidays can be a really hard time for some people. I don't want to be this person that I feel myself turning into. Bitter, angry, unable to look at pictures with infants, irrationally mad at my pregnant friends or friends with young kids. I have always said that my friends are my family, and it's true. They're some of the most important people in my life. But lately I don't want to see any of them, or really even talk to any of them. The only people I really want to talk to are the people who have been through this, the people who get it, who know what it's like to physically feel the thing you wanted the most in the world literally slip away. I don't think I will ever forget what that felt like; within a matter of hours, my body just letting go. My doctor said I have some kind of blood clotting disorder. I have to go back to see her after the holidays, but she said it is treatable. I be...